Preschool and Scary stuff again...oh and an update!

So first of all, I decided not to put Owen into preschool and I am going to teach him myself. I have started writing my lesson plans and I have found tons of fun crafts and activities but I'm having trouble figuring out how to teach him the lessons and what curriculum to teach...do any of you have any ideas, websites, books etc. that you go to?

Second of all, I had another one of those attacks (you can read about it HERE and HERE).

I had another one since that first one, 2 Decembers ago. I was watching Top Chef when it happened.. It was just as terrifying as the first, maybe even worse because I was completely panicking-probably making it worse. I told Chad I just wanted to die during it. I wasn't being a drama queen, I really wanted to, it hurt that bad.

This last one woke me up in the middle of the night. I knew it was about to happen, I went and got some cold water (it helps) and woke Chad up, I tried very hard not to panic and just focused on my breathing. That is all I could do. It is physically soo painful and mentally exhausting because you don't know when it is going to stop and you have to keep fighting not to panic. I prayed and prayed and prayed.. it went away after 30 mins or so (my hands were completely stiff and I was unable to move them again). After it subsided, I was soo relieved, only to have another one, which lasted another 30 mins. It wasn't as intense as the first but just as stressful. I was proud of myself because I stayed calm the entire time, which helped I think.

Today, I have just felt soo sad. I just don't understand why this happens to me. I'm pretty sure it's a panic attack from what I've read, which completely blows my mind, Because- I'm not an anxious person, I'm not a stressed person, I'm a happy person, I love life and I think I deal with my emotions well. I just DON'T ever want it to happen again, but I can't figure out what triggers it. Nothing was going on out of the ordinary yesterday (just like the last two). I'm just really confused about it.

Anyways, thought I'd share with you what's been going on. Other than that..life here is great! GA is growing on me. Hallie is LOVING school. Owen has made a new best friend (he talks about him non-stop). Knox is getting soo big and brings me soo much joy. Chad is loving his job! He's going to school to get his masters (he should finish in a year). And will continue on and get his PHD after that. He is also teaching at the University and loves it!

I feel bad because I used to post 10 times/month. Now, it's maybe 1 or 2 times/month. I need to get better at it again.

She-Ra!

My kid's were watching She-Ra on netflix..an 80's cartoon. I was sitting on the couch playing with Knox and Hallie yells, "Momma!! Look at him he is sooo handsome!!" I look up to see this guy...

I said, "That guy is handsome?" and she said, "NO..the one with the heart on his chest...There he is! There he is!!"

I said.."Ohh..why don't you think the guy with the blonde hair is handsome?" Hallie: "oh..he looks like a girl."


Wow.

Not my taste but..okay..

Should I be worried??? hahahahahahhaha!

Pinterest

Have you heard about Pinterest?? Ohmigosh..I LOVE IT!!!

Basically, it's a visual bookmarking system. I don't know about you, but I am constantly book marking ideas, recipes, websites, etc, just to forget about them and never look at them again.

This website is a great way for you to have all of these bookmarks in one place. This is how it works, you just drag the Pin it button onto your toolbar and then when you are browsing the internet and you see a picture you like click the pin it button, it then pins the picture to one of your bulletin boards on the site. I have a dozen or so bulletin boards with different categories, My dream house, Clothes, Dream vacations etc..

You can also browse your friend's or other's pins, and pin those as wellu. Check out some of the pins I have found:

If you want to see all of my bulletin boards clickHere.

You have to be invited to Pinterest so if you'd like an invite let me know. Also, thank you Lindsay for inviting me!

My House: The Conclusion

As Promised my Lovely Kitchen:

That's right the Washer and Dryer are in my Kitchen...One of my main complaints about this kitchen was that and not having a dishwasher, but as you can see here, Chad got me a portable dishwasher from craigslist a few weeks ago. HALLELUJAH!! The time I spent doing dishes has been cut in half!

There are tons of cabinets as you can see here, I just can't reach most of them...

I know my kitchen isn't the cutest...but there are some positives:

2 ovens (my Great Grandparents had an oven VERy similar to this one)

5 eyes

A HUGE sink (even though it is brown)

There's also a HUGE pantry I didn't take a picture of and another big storage closet.

The Door you see in my Kitchen leads to this:

my kid's playroom

We also have an office..finally!!

...enough room for our computer desk and...my craft desk!!

Eghh..who am I kidding..it normally looks like this:

So I can make stuff Like this: